Each day we are given a new opportunity. Did you fail yesterday? Today you can succeed! Did you feed your body junk yesterday? Today you can empower yourself with good nutrition! Were you impatient yesterday? Today you can be patient! Were you unkind yesterday? Today you can show compassion, empathy, love, acceptance. Yesterday is now only a tool to show you how today is full of possibility that you may have forgotten or been reluctant to pursue. Today we can begin!
Before my feet hit the floor I made sure to take a few moments spent in gratitude. I am grateful for so much that I forget to even give pause to recognize. What a refreshing way to begin the day.
And as I ate my breakfast, I pulled a card... HEALING! How amazing... How perfect. I am in the midst of a healing season. Not only am I healing from physical sickness, but also emotional and mental. I am in a whole body metamorphosis. I am a chrysalis.
An excerpt from the commentary on Healing:
"It is a time when the deeply buried wounds of the past are coming to the surface, ready and available to be healed. The figure in this card is naked, vulnerable, open to the loving touch of existence. The aura around his body is full of light, and the quality of relaxation, caring and love that surrounds him is dissolving his struggle and suffering.
Be aware of your wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal; with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things. Just for twenty-four hours, try it-- total acceptance, whatsoever happens."
So in this new day, I am whole. To be completely candid for a moment, I want to reveal that I have recently battled a bout of postpartum depression. My first instinct was to medicate. I did not trust my power and ability to overcome this challenge on my own. In the past week or so something changed in me, however. I suddenly realized I can trust myself. I stopped taking my prescribed anti-depressant. It is amazing how much better I feel. To be perfectly clear, I am not advocating or dismissing the need for medication. This is MY personal journey. I simply feel the need to share my experience as a way to document and journal. It just so happens I don't mind doing it in a public forum for the small chance my words resonate with just one... or many. :)
I will accept this day whatsoever happens. I will not bury my hurt or deny past wounds. Instead I choose to be open to love, caring and allow healing. I am letting go...
