Anticipation

wishing winds

blow through the night

branched roots in the grounds

fertile

sway with the tickle of the thoughts and dreams 

and passions

of the silent voices 

sending out 

their hopes and desires

into the 

vastness of 

future 

of 

tomorrow

of 

time

endless and light

with possibility

growing and revolving around 

the life chord

a life forms from 

two beats

before plans and paths 

were even formed

emergence 

with soft breath and 

first cry

expression of needs

before wants

love at the core

basic and pure

life 

Mind over Matter

"By clinging to your resentments, you rob yourself of your power, peace of mind, and your ability to create yourself anew."

Lately I have had more happy days than not, but those old demons, old patterns of thought, old and destructive habits of clinging with a death-grip to wrongs done to me creep up if I’m not careful. It steals my joy and undermines my happiness. The sad thing is I forget my own power to control it.

Truthfully, it is exhausting to keep up with a running tally of wrongs. It takes up space in my spirit when I store away pain, hurt, anger and resentment. When I free that space and let go of those negative feelings I am instantly and perfectly aware of a new lightness that is physically, emotionally and spiritually palpable.

I am inspired by words. I am inspired by wise words. I read the sage advice daily from @allowhappiness on Twitter and find myself stopping to meditate on the thoughts of those who have unlocked the secret to their own happiness. I am grateful for their journey and even more grateful for their ability to share their discoveries through their words. My struggles are not new; my battles are not unique. I am in a fight to overcome my own negative self and all that it takes is letting my more authentic self emerge… the me that smiles and loves and is invested not only in my own happiness but the happiness of those around me. We are all so full of power. We all possess the power to change our thoughts, which essentially changes who we are.

What I am learning is that if I am unhappy, it is only because I am choosing to be unhappy. If I am angry, I choose it. Moments of emotion occur… we can’t stop that. But what we choose to do with it is within our control. Feel in the moment, acknowledge it, let it go. We can truly become powerful when we realize that our happiness is only affected by our own thoughts… not the words, or actions of what is occurring around us.

Read Elie Wiesel’s ‘Night’  … an autobiographical work based on Wiesel’s experiences as a prisoner in the Auschwitz, Buna, and Buchenwald concentration camps. It is an amazing testament to the powers of the human mind to control one’s experience.

"This is the renaissance. This is the beginning of being able to discover that you are the creator of your own experience." ~Abraham-Hicks

Much love,
CW

paths

following the lead that leads to unsatisfied want
I turn
choosing the present, the now, fulfilled

no more than here
no less than possible

open

receiving the flow of energy, life, love, light
blocks placed only at the cracks
where darkness creeps and
joy erodes

and when darkened days approach
all around becomes still
I know my name
and reality crystal
will shine brightly forward
within

the opportunity in now

To think too long about doing a thing often becomes its undoing.  ~Eva Young

If there is an art to procrastination, I have mastered it. I was thinking this morning about all of the tasks I could be completing. If only thoughts equaled action. 

More specifically, I was thinking about how I am highly motivated to do something at the wrong time and lose that fervor when it becomes the right time. As an example, I am currently obsessed with wanting to work out, to really get in great shape... I must mention I am 7 months pregnant. Coincidence? I think not. Pre-pregnancy, I was only moderately motivated to get to the gym, but I would daydream about how I would make sure my diet was perfect if I were to ever get pregnant again... I write this as I finish a venti cappuccino from Starbucks and pop the 10th chocolate covered almond in my happy mouth... (sorry N).

On my current To Do list: 

1. Purge and pack our home (two adults, three girls) to move in one month to a new house

2. Complete an online Real Estate course

3. Register our four-year-old for preschool

4. Enroll our 9- and 10- year old in a new elementary school 

5. Research and register girls in extra curricular activities

These are the priorities... of course, there is more. I list these here for my own accountability.  It has worked so far for me in the other areas in my life I'm focused on improving... my discovery: if I write it then I do it. Hopefully I'll experience a breakthrough in this endeavor as well. This could be my own Stranger than Fiction ... afterall, we truly are the author of our lives. Anything is possible...



The best way to get something done is to begin.  ~Author Unknown


much love,
CW

wisdom in love

A woman I adore recently revealed to me some words packed with wisdom that have completely changed the way I think...

"When we love someone, we think the best of them ... not the worst."

My immediate application was to use this as a way to validate my anger at the way some people in my life have judged me incorrectly. The real breakthrough, however, comes when we seek wisdom and apply that wisdom to create a newness in ourselves; our own thoughts; our own ways. My only focus is to better myself; not to change, or worse, to vilify others.

What I am discovering is that loving myself is directly correlated to how well I love others. It's a fantastic discovery.  And at the heart of those wise words is this lesson: When we love ourselves, we think the best about who we are... not the worst.

I leave you with more wise words dedicated to love. Love yourself. Be kind to you. Speak gently to yourself and that will radiate in every action and every word you provide to others.

“Something inside you emerges….an innate, indwelling peace, stillness, aliveness. It is the unconditioned, who you are in your essence. It is what you had been looking for in the love object. It is yourself.”
- Eckhart Tolle

“Find the love you seek, by first finding the love within yourself. Learn to rest in that place within you that is your true home.”

- Sri Sri Ravi Shankar 

For more visit 101 Loving Yourself Quotes

Much love,
CW

elements

Fire. hot words. hot thoughts.
feeling too much of that burning to protect the layers underneath.

Ice. cold touch. cold comfort.
no connection to the fleshy part of pain.

Diving in face first. eyes open. mouth open.
heart forgotten.

leaving prints of embracing and the faintest fever for another kiss. another time.
gone.

shivering and shaking. emerging more lost than found. grasping the air lingering with the scent of moments passed.

passed by. passed through. passed over.

the power of your mind

"The beauty of life is that everything that happens is meaningless. It is the meaning you choose to give it that matters." ~ Bashar

Words are powerful--Whether they are written, or spoken, or thought. I am taking a step away from the words I write and focusing on the words I think (of course I am compelled to write about this journey, however). These words need some attention. That inner voice of mine is loud, obnoxious, and extremely negative.
It is a freedom like no other to unlock the power of your thoughts. To say "no matter what is occurring, what the circumstance, I choose happiness." Our feelings, our thoughts are merely choices we make. I am on a journey dedicated to happiness. When I begin to feel negative thoughts creeping in, I am choosing now to breathe and refocus my thoughts, my energy on joy.

"You will never, ever find any higher or better or wiser guidance than your own inner  voice." ~ Chief Joseph

I have abandoned that familiar inner voice full of criticism and negativity, and I am intent on replacing it with a kinder, gentler, calmer, saner, softer voice that breathes love, compassion and encouragement into my life.

"Nothing stands between you and anything you desire other than your own patterns of thought." ~ Abraham-Hicks 

It is challenging to turn from the known to the unknown, especially when it encompasses a way of being. But, thankfully I have been blessed with key people in my life who have gone before me in this journey and exemplify success. I am in a state of gratitude for their example.

"Don't be scared if negative thoughts and feeling come up for you. Breathe and refocus." ~ Dr. Jennifer Howard

I share this inner journey with you outwardly because I feel that I am not alone in this. I don't believe it an exaggeration to say that we all suffer from an incapability to filter circumstance correctly. It is merely a choice to recognize that the difference between fulfillment and unfulfillment; happiness and unhappiness; even success and failure is determined by perception. We are all so powerful. Anything is possible. You control your happiness with your thoughts. Every emotion you experience is guidance that shows you who you are being in relation to the allowing or resisting of your own essential nature.

"Happiness is your nature. It is not wrong to desire it. What is wrong is seeking it outside when it is inside." ~Ramana Maharshi

With much love and hope, joy and happiness,

CW